I’ve been keeping close record of all the dreams that I can remember very vividly. Sometimes I would wake up from a dream I had about Alex not really remembering what it was but I could almost feel his presence in the room. You ever felt that way after having a dream about someone close to you? Here are dreams 14-18.
Dream #14: Cleaning His Temple
We are in a new apartment now, laughing and having a good time around the dinner table. Alex looks 19 again and almost childlike with rosy red cheeks and an innocent smile and giggle. All of a sudden the focus changes and he is 22, sad and frustrated. My dad is sitting next to Alex as he begins to choke on something. My dad smacks Alex’s back 3 times and he throws up a bunch of junk food (BBQ potato chips to be exact). When you felt better my dad got up and left.
Dream #15: Alex is a Girl?!
Alex and I are engaged but he will not talk to me, let alone have anything to do with me. I find myself walking through a drug store trying to find him and end up talking to a very pretty girl with long brown hair and wearing a blue fuzzy sweater. I see my friend Ellen from high school walking down an aisle as I follow this other girl out trying to get her attention and talk to her, she will have nothing to do with me. We are walking in a parking lot and it’s dark outside and I continue to ask her, “Why won’t you let me touch you?” as I try to hold her hand. “Because I don’t like you!” She said. “Then why did you agree to marry me?” I asked in frustration. She retorts, “Because it’s like you said, ‘Love will come in good time and healing’ I am learning to trust you again.” I was talking to her as if she was Alex!
Dream #16: The Dirty Laundry
I was in Alex’s room and he handed me a pile of clothes to wash and then asked me to leave. I saw him later with my co-worker Kylie; the both had the same colour hair as me and liked each other! I felt a pang of jealousy as I saw them undressing and getting ready to take a shower together. When I saw her leave I walked into his room and in the dim light from the bathroom I saw how messy his room was. Piles of clothes everywhere! On the floor and scattered, hanging off his bed and several piles leading into the bathroom. I turned around and saw him standing in the doorway of his room. “What are you doing here?” He asked. “Came to say, ‘HI’” I said. Alex walked up to me and gave me a big hug, just fell into me like he used to and moaned and sighed like he hadn’t been hugged in a while. “I missed you,” he said. “I missed you too,” I say back. “I’m sorry.” He says. “It’s OK,” I say still holding him. “I have a job now. Don’t tell anybody, but I work at M’s.” he said seeming ashamed.
Apparently “M’s” was a really crappy diner that he was waiting at, when he said where he was working I got a small picture of a dingy middle of nowhere diner and he was bashful at admitting he was working food service. Later I found myself hiding behind some bushes as I watched him and Kylie sitting in a hot tub with some friends. And then I said to myself, well, he doesn’t have his arm around her…
Dream #17: Sammy and the California King
We were laying in a bed, a very large bed and we were cuddling and laughing. Then my friend Sammy showed up and he began to rub her feet.
Dream #18: The Snowy Backyard and My Red Hair
I went onto my facebook again to check Alex’s profile and saw his picture had changed again! His hair was the same colour red as mine and much longer. I decided to look at his pictures and saw a bunch of new photos that had been taken at his new house. Still wearing his black beanie hat, baggy dark blue jeans and black thick rimmed glasses, but he had on a yellow shirt and red hair! But he was not smiling, everyone seemed to be having fun in the backyard of the house but him. Still the straight stoic face and stale voice when he spoke…if he spoke at all. And there was snow on the ground…funny this is, I had this dream a week before it began to snow here.
